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Thursday, January 31, 2008
Another 2 weeks of not post anything here. I have been soooo no mood in blogging. Anyway, next week is Chinese New Year already. He will be working for the whole chinese new year. Hmmm..... I also have to past this CNY with short hair. When will my hair grow long? I had been asking myself this question for many times and looked into the mirror to see miracle. I think a few more times, the mirror confirm broke into pieces. Haha!!!
There are some news to share out. These two days, Gillian Chung and Edsion Chen naked photos had been exposed. There are pictures in the website. Here is one of them. You may have a look if you are interested. Haha!!!
This few days in my company, there are alot of people resigned. Haizzzz!! Feel so demoralised. I also wish I can resign. I must faster earn enough money and then buy my house and then can have my Tai Tai's life le. Awaiting for that day.
One more month I will be going to genting with him. Yeah Yeah!! I also have to go there with short hair this year. So Sad!!
Hair hair hair, please grow faster. I want back my long long hair. I promise, once I get my long long hair back, I will protect it from being cut short and will take good care of it. Haizzz... Please dont let me wait so long. I want to have back my long long hair.
This one whole week I have a bad toothache. All because of my widsom tooth. Hate this feeling. When can it be okay? I dont want to have toothache when CNY. Hope that I will look good for CNY and the rest of my life. Hehe!!!
Friday, January 18, 2008
I hate myself for not protecting you from leaving me. I hate myself for not keeping you by my side. I hate myself for keep thinking of you. I hate myself for giving you up.
Sometimes, I will ask myself whether did I do wrong or not. But eventually, I will never get the answer. I really want to know the answer. I have kept trying not to think of you, but you will just appear in my mind when I'm free or paused to think of other things. Is it that I can't let my mind to rest in order not to think of you? I felt so hurt. If I have another chance, will I walk the same path as today again? I do not know. Will you blame me?
It had been months since I have separated with you. But really, I still think of you. If I have another chance, I will tell you I love You. I can only tell myself maybe fate brought us together but never wanted us to live together for life. I really wish that you can have a better life. Maybe you will lead a better with other then with me. Everything is written black and white in the heaven book, that you are not meant for me. So, I will not force myself or anyone. All I can is to blame myself.
Thanks for the feelings you have given me for the past months. I will treasure and remember it always. I know I will not forget you, you will always be in my heart. I will try not to think of you to make my life simple, but I will keep you deep in heart always. There will be no one to replace your place, I promise.
Lastly, in here, I really want to tell you I LOVE YOU always, my lovely dearest. I know you wouldn't see it, but I still wanted to tell you.
Typing word by word, tears flow down my cheeks and blood flowing out my heart. It was too painful already.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Back to blogging again!!!!
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